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[16 Nov 2009|06:42pm] |
awesome, so my insurance has been charging me each month for the last several months even though they stopped insuring me in october and were telling me my insurance goes on until december really awesome.
now i am an uninsurable person that is uninsured. fucking great. fingers crossed that my current job hires me otherwise what the fuck point do i have in this country.
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[04 Aug 2009|01:16am] |
remember the good times. i know we haven't talked in years, but i'll miss ya.
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[11 Jul 2009|11:54pm] |
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i broke my clavicle.
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[07 Jul 2009|04:12pm] |
i have a three day job at an architectural firm at the end of the week. i've been going to museums lately. today i went to the folk art museum, sfmoma and the cartoon art museum. mostly things are a bit slow and boring and the job search isn't going too well really. at least i have unemployment although it doesn't pay for much.
wish things were better. my brain is all muddled with things.
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[30 Jun 2009|11:08pm] |
"while you are at work..."
make the most of this.
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[28 Jun 2009|09:44pm] |
i don't have to be up early tomorrow, but i am going to go riding at 8am with robin. on days i am not working i am going to keep waking up early and go riding to the beach and back first thing. i'm going to try to keep up on getting out and being active. going to bed and waking up early. don't get lazy. keep on track. try to eat healthier too. use this time to do with myself what i think is important.
that'll be a good start. at the very least, see how long i can keep this up. hopefully i get some sort of work soon though. it's gonna be weird.
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[16 Jun 2009|10:00pm] |
i should have a job interview at my work tomorrow for a marketing job. i hope i get it. the best thing about writing in this journal anymore is to look back at how i felt about my job over the past year + how my life has changed since i've moved up to the bay area.
sometimes it has been good and other times it hasn't been so good. we'll see what happens next.
fingers crossed.
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[11 Jun 2009|01:25am] |
the 19th looks to be my final last day. lately i have somehow been keeping busy. spending time with friends. mostly anymore my life is across the bay in oakland. right now, i am OK with that.
so much is up in the air. i am trying to worry less and less. i just need to be responsible and keep things together. it'll be ok. right.
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[21 May 2009|07:30pm] |
my job got outsourced to india. a casualty to the recession + outsourcing. killing two statistics with one stone.
i work until next friday then i'm gone. i'm really really really going to miss a few people from work. a lot. it sucks. then again, the job is kind of dumb...so what can you do.
i go up to seattle may 30th till june 4th. a few days to relax. then get back to work trying to get work.
life is sweet.
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[17 May 2009|09:10pm] |
i am so nervous about going to work on monday. i don't want to lose what i have. it's not much, but it's something.
i'm wondering if i'll be able to survive on unemployment. i guess at least for one month i have a good amount of money in my paypal account (nearly a month's rent) and i will have unemployment money coming in. HOPEFULLY i will be able to sell more records/find more records to flip (i already have a few things to make some quick $$$). i also will hopefully pick up doing merch at the independent again (very hopefully!). we'll see. shit is not good right now.
my stomach is in knots and it's too hard to sleep anymore.
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[13 May 2009|10:18pm] |
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i think i am a pretty insufferable person. :/
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[06 Apr 2009|08:55pm] |
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i had a panic attack this morning. i think i know why.
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[30 Mar 2009|09:15am] |
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sometimes i really wish i was back at uci. i'd feel a lot more productive with life. i miss school.
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[29 Mar 2009|12:55am] |
yesterday was mixed drink lunch with my favorite coworkers and hanging out after work. today was too many shots and smashing a tv and getting cut off on the bike path and getting hit and falling and discovering cuts and bruises on my arms, legs, back and face.
tomorrow will be fun.
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[25 Mar 2009|11:56am] |
sometimes i just want to walk out. it's obvious i am wasting my time here (in so many ways).
but now i have so many more financial obligations (rent and other bills, health insurance, everything).
i don't want to do this anymore.
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[16 Feb 2009|07:20pm] |
after getting back a grand from taxes, i put all back into a new macbook. goodbye windows.
lately i've been thinking a lot about interpersonal communication. obviously i always feel i am pretty bad at it, but at the same time i just kind of wonder too much about the right and wrong of it all. kind of confusing.
work has been very frustrating. i have made friends and am getting to know a number of coworkers and despite the fact the company is doing pretty well i really don't know whats going on with the hiring process (if it'll ever happen, or happen in time). it is quite frustrating and is causing too much stress. i think that stress coupled with other worries has caused recent migraines. blah. i wish things were different.
so other than that, ok.
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[05 Feb 2009|09:45pm] |
some days i am really excited for life and myself and some days i am not. i feel so conflicted. things don't turn out the way you want but it's ok. what else is there to say?
"oh graveyard, you can't hold me always" is the best record i've picked up this year.
i started a blog:
this email i got at work today.
welcome to web 2.0.
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[29 Jan 2009|10:03pm] |
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today we signed the new lease. looks like i shouldn't be moving again anytime soon. finally, some sense of stability. for real!
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[27 Jan 2009|11:00pm] |
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stay and be positive. :)
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[29 Dec 2008|09:40pm] |
maybe it's time to actually have some sort of a new year's resolution. i suppose if so, then it would be to try and be more outgoing and enjoy life and other people more. don't be so discouraging. let's see how long that can last.
also kick social anxiety's butt. seriously.
whatever else. keep my job (hopefully, though how long till something goes wrong and oof?). get better health insurance. save money. continue purging excess. maybe go back to socal, up to washington and out to nyc sometime in the next year.
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